This is Annie the demon cat!
Ashlyn and Mitch gave her a bath.
So this is Cat known by most as Annie, but by me as simply Cat is the spawn of Satan Cat. She doesn’t like anyone and won’t let you pet her. On top of that she shed’s like crazy and always has fleas. I wanted to shave her the other day, but they wouldn’t let me.
I never noticed the beauty of the sunset. I was captivated by other things
My favorite picture
I love this "precious" little kid
The team
The Missionaries
They loved the camera
So for the past few weeks I have really been missing Africa, particularliy Mozambique. I was able to spend a wonderful week or so there this past summer and am longing to go back. I have Gabi’s bagillion or so pictures scrolling as my background and screen savor and so it’s always in front of me.
As I said in my last post, there have been a ton of questions rolling around in my head for a while and this doesn’t necisarily answer any of them, but it is a thought. I know I definitely want to go back. For how long, who knows? God. And then I know that God is preparing me and put in my heart something to do with pastoring people. I love to see people pray for each other and students praying with each other. i love to see them make decisions that will change their lives forever.
I miss Isaac and Carol as well. They were a huge blessing to me while we were there. they were so life giving and joyful. Be praying for them. They are doing amazing things and I know the devil isn’t happy about it.
Well I guess that’s all for now. Peace Out Tommorrow! 
The Dark Knight
So me and a few friends went see the new Batman movie last night at 12 o’clock with about a thousand other people. It was amazing. Heath Ledger did an outstanding job playing the Joker. Best movie I’ve seen all summer.
So I’ve been thinking a lot lately and for some reason some of the same questions kept popping into my mind. I decided to write them all down and as I did more began to come out. And these aren’t just light-hearted questions for me. They are serious soul-searching questions. Since I’m not really the quiet, shy kind of person, I decided to share them. Maybe they will make you question as well. Straight from my journal…my questions.
1. Why am I in HPSM?
2. How did I get here?
3.What do I feel God has placed in my heart? To do?
4. Where do I feel God is leading me?
5. What is my next step after next year? Not just what everyone thinks, but where do I feel God is leading me?
6. How do you balance hearing from God and God speaking to you through other people? know the difference?
7. Does excelling in something automatically mean that’s what I’m supposed to do?
8. Where/What am I burdened by?
9. Why do I do what I do?
10.What am I passionate about?
11. What drives/motivates me?
12. Have I made this about me?
These are some of the questions I’m pondering over and seeking God for answers. I honestly do not know the answers to alot of these questions. I feel that God is definitely drawing me or something out of me. I don’t know…we’ll see what happens.
So I was looking at my blog stats or whatever when I noticed that one of the post that someone clicked on had a title that seemed to be what was going through my head now. I decided to click on it and read it all the way through…wow. It’s like this post was written to me by me only two years ago. I mean it just hit hit the nail on the head..it goes like this…sorry it’s kinda long
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Well alot has been going on with me lately…i’m kind of tired so i’m going to just put everything outhere… I guess what God has really been showing me that i have to trust Him more…you know we always say Lord i give you my future, my desires, my everything, but do we really mean it…? When our future is at stake and our desires are running rampart, do we still trust God with them…Unfortuanetlly for me, sometimes the answer is no…i’ve been having a lot on my mind lately about alot of different things…and i’ve gotten really stressed out…I’ve been worrying and thinking and dwelling on eventualities and stuff…the “what if’s” if you will…and it’s really not good for my health; the worrying part i mean…theres actually a scripture, and i’m not sure on the exact reference that pretty much says, “don’t worry” I”m like hello…come on jordan…so yeah, i’ve been talking to my parents about it and they believe i’m just overanalyzing things, which is a good possibility… if you don’t know me, i am always overanalyzing…I actually think the devil is trying to distract me by using my worry… and what’s so hard is that i’m worried about whether this situation is God’s will and stuff like that…but i had a good quiet time tonight and God really gave me some peace…i still don’t really know all of His will, but i guess i’ll never know it…actually mr. dan told me the other day of an analogy he heard concerning God’s will…basically it’s goes like this, and i hope i don’t screw this up to bad, but your in a car…and you can only see as far as the headlights allow…you know there’s more road ahead, but you know that you can only worry about that when the headlights show it to you…so basically don’t worry about the far far future…we have to trust God to show us what we need to know and believe that He’ll guide us through the rest when it comes…
Kinda going along the trust line; i was reading my bible tonight and i remembered the scripture Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to you own understanding. in all your ways acknoweledge Him and He shall direct your paths.” I’ve read this scripture before, and even have it committed to memory, but something stuck out to me tonight that i haven’t thought about before…it says to trust in the lord with all of your heart, and well we say we do that, but as i was thinking about it and thinking of what’s going on in my own heart, we really, or at least me, mostly trust Him when things are going good. We can say in the good times that we trust Him with everything but in the bad we question…why is that? Or when we’re scared to voice to God our emotions or feelings because we don’t know if they’re His will…you know what..God already knows what we’re thinking, feeling, and everything! its no secret to Him! It all goes back to trust; when we don’t intentionally tell God our thoughts and stuff in essence we’re saying we don’t trust You God, you couldn’t possibly understand…and like i said this is a completley knew thought to me also, so i’m going through it too…
But like i said I had a great quiet time and God is teaching me to simply wait on Him..not get caught up in my own little world of questions and insecurities, but to trust Him alone and to know that he has my best in mind…
With all that’s been going on in my head, God has made me very aware of how thankfull i am for my parents and other Godly mentors and friends that help me through these times…thank you God for everything…You are so awesome…!!!! and thanks again friends… yeah i know it was kinda corny, but oh well i really am thankfull for ya’ll…you all challenge me in more ways than you know….
and that’s about it…i’m going to bed now, and i can’t wait for tommorrow…yay it’s refuge…oh an dthursdday we have our jamborree, or hwoever you spell it…we’re playig Holden…our rivals…so yeah it’ll be a pretty intense game…but we’re ready…so yeah…
later
in christ
jordan
Isn’t God awesome. I love how He can speak to you in so many ways. Well I just thought that was cool.
Stash Attack
So one of my good friends Caleb Brown is leaving tommorrow morning to go to El Paso Texas to help start HPC El Paso. He’s going to be leading worship and doing a ton of other things. He’s going to do great. Gonna miss ya! Have fun!
So as i said I’m the tc for VBS. Well Ida decided to give the “computer” a name. She would always say “Boot Gretna” when she wanted something on the screen. Well at the end of the day when they were supposed to do random give-aways, I messed up on something and couldn’t get it to work. Ida got everyone chanting “boot gretna” a ton of times. so yeah I disappointed those poor little kids.
Well the next day, I messed up on something different but still something visible on the screen. This time no one had to tell the kids what to do. They all started yelling, “boot Gretna” at the top of their lungs. i was mad at that time, but it was hysterical later.
View from the back row.
So it’s definitely been a long time in coming, but this is my 100th post. Here are some pics I took yesterday after VBS. No we weren’t there illegally, we were supervised
View from the Stage
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So yeah, this year has been awesome. here’s some pics. Experimenting with different slide show things and this one kinda sucks. just click the forward button to view them all. if you have any suggestions on a good free slideshow creater thing let me know.
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So for the past nine months I’ve been in this super intense, 6am to 11pm internship called Elevate. I loved it. I was used to it. And now it’s summer. I feel useless. i feel like I am wasting my time when i could be doing more productive things. These are most of the thoughts that have been passing through my mind. But there is one thing that I have really enjoyed about the summer. And that’s being able to spend time with my family.
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I’m a guy that when I get something on my mind, I pursue with all I have. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, but i do tend to forget the things that are most important. I remember we had a class on balancing family and ministry, or something like that. Well anyway, I realized then that I did not do a very good job balancing. My life was all lopsided. But I’ve made a commitment to myself and to my family that this year would be different. I know it’s going to take time and patience on their part, but I have to learn this simple, yet extremely difficult feat. Not only do I need to learn to spend time with them, that’s not that difficult, you just show up, but I am learning what it means to serve them. this is a lot more difficult.
Well just some thoughts about what God is showing and teaching me. Peace!!!
Oh Yeah, today is my mom’s Birthday so give her a call and wish her a happy birthday.
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