My contribution

So my dad was building me a pool house for me to live in after HPSM.  Well I was too busy last year with Elevate to really help much, so they were gracious enough to save the back half of the pool house for me to do.  This is what it looked like before.

Before

That’s not paint, but mud in the corner.

And this is what I was able to contribute.

 

After

I know it’s not much, but it’s something.

I would say that this is one of the first steps in learning how to serve my family. Oh how I have alot to learn.

Trust

So God continues to teach me things about Him and myself. As I know he will continue to do. I’ve been studying to teach at Closer on trust. As I learn, I see how much I don’t know. It’s funny that I’m studying to teach on trust and God is continually challenging me in this area. I know that God wants my entire being. He wants all of me. Not just my big decisions, but every decision. He’s teaching me that I can’t fit Him into my plan, He is my plan and everything else is lagniappe.

What he taught me tonight was that it’s not enough to say that I trust Him and pray to Him about my future. He showed me that every single day i wake up i have to decide to trust Him. I have to decide that He has the best in mind for me and I should follow Him because He is worthy. Put aside all the other promises the Bible has and He is still worthy. Put aside the circumstances I find myself in, He is still worthy. Put aside the fillings I have, He is still worthy. He is worthy.

I know this is all random, but that’s what is in my head and heart. Confusion and a desire to please God.

Have you ever tried to verbalize what’s in your heart and not really be able to do it? Yeah well that’s what’s happening to me.

I guess I’ll just have to trust God. random

X-Files a let down.

So the new X-Files movie was a huge let down for me. Its the X-files, you’d expect something to do with aliens or government conspiracy or something…nothing. A good story, but a dud as far a expectations go. Bummer

My Nemesis

 

 

This is Annie the demon cat!

Ashlyn and Mitch gave her a bath.

So this is Cat known by most as Annie, but by me as simply Cat is the spawn of Satan Cat.  She doesn’t like anyone and won’t let you pet her.  On top of that she shed’s like crazy and always has fleas.  I wanted to shave her the other day, but they wouldn’t let me.

Missing Africa

Second favorite picture

 

I never noticed the beauty of the sunset. I was captivated by other things

 

My favorite picture

 

I love this "precious" little kid

 

The team

 

The Missionaries

They loved the camera

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So for the past few weeks I have really been missing Africa, particularliy Mozambique.  I was able to spend a wonderful week or so there this past summer and am longing to go back. I have Gabi’s bagillion or so pictures scrolling as my background and screen savor and so it’s always in front of me.

 

As I said in my last post, there have been a ton of questions rolling around in my head for a while and this doesn’t necisarily answer any of them, but it is a thought.  I know I definitely want to go back. For how long, who knows? God.  And then I know that God is preparing me and put in my heart something to do with pastoring people. I love to see people pray for each other and students praying with each other.  i love to see them make decisions that will change their lives forever.

I miss Isaac and Carol as well.  They were a huge blessing to me while we were there.  they were so life giving and joyful.  Be praying for them.  They are doing amazing things and I know the devil isn’t happy about it.

Well I guess that’s all for now.  Peace Out Tommorrow!

THE DARK KNIGHT

 

The Dark Knight

So me and a few friends went see the new Batman movie last night at 12 o’clock with about a thousand other people.  It was amazing.  Heath Ledger did an outstanding job playing the Joker. Best movie I’ve seen all summer.

Thoughts and Questions

So I’ve been thinking a lot lately and for some reason some of the same questions kept popping into my mind.  I decided to write them all down and as I did more began to come out.  And these aren’t just light-hearted questions for me.  They are serious soul-searching questions.  Since I’m not really the quiet, shy kind of person, I decided to share them.  Maybe they will make you question as well.  Straight from my journal…my questions.

1. Why am I in HPSM?

2. How did I get here?

3.What do I feel God has placed in my heart? To do?

4. Where do I feel God is leading me?

5. What is my next step after next year?  Not just what everyone thinks, but where do I feel God is leading me?

6. How do you balance hearing from God and God speaking to you through other people? know the difference?

7. Does excelling in something automatically mean that’s what I’m supposed to do?

8. Where/What am I burdened by?

9. Why do I do what I do?

10.What am I passionate about?

11. What drives/motivates me?

12. Have I made this about me?

These are some of the questions I’m pondering over and seeking God for answers. I honestly do not know the answers to alot of these questions. I feel that God is definitely drawing me or something out of me.  I don’t know…we’ll see what happens.

Post I wrote almost two years ago.

So I was looking at my blog stats or whatever when I noticed that one of the post that someone clicked on had a title that seemed to be what was going through my head now.  I decided to click on it and read it all the way through…wow. It’s like this post was written to me by me only two years ago.  I mean it just hit hit the nail on the head..it goes like this…sorry it’s kinda long

Distraction meets Trust or something that hopefully sounds smart but probably not…idk don’t ask… :)

October 11, 2006 by jordan gautreau | Edit

Well alot has been going on with me lately…i’m kind of tired so i’m going to just put everything outhere…  I guess what God has really been showing me that i have to trust Him more…you know we always say Lord i give you my future, my desires, my everything, but do we really mean it…? When our future is at stake and our desires are running rampart, do we still trust God with them…Unfortuanetlly for me, sometimes the answer is no…i’ve been having a lot on my mind lately about alot of different things…and i’ve gotten really stressed out…I’ve been worrying and thinking and dwelling on eventualities and stuff…the “what if’s” if you will…and it’s really not good for my health; the worrying part i mean…theres actually a scripture, and i’m not sure on the exact reference that pretty much says, “don’t worry” I”m like hello…come on jordan…so yeah, i’ve been talking to my parents about it and they believe i’m just overanalyzing things, which is a good possibility… if you don’t know me, i am always overanalyzing…I actually think the devil is trying to distract me by using my worry… and what’s so hard is that i’m worried about whether this situation is God’s will and stuff like that…but i had a good quiet time tonight and God really gave me some peace…i still don’t really know all of His will, but i guess i’ll never know it…actually mr. dan told me the other day of an analogy he heard concerning God’s will…basically it’s goes like this, and i hope i don’t screw this up to bad, but your in a car…and you can only see as far as the headlights allow…you know there’s more road ahead, but you know that you can only worry about that when the headlights show it to you…so basically don’t worry about the far far future…we have to trust God to show us what we need to know and believe that He’ll guide us through the rest when it comes…

Kinda going along the trust line; i was reading my bible tonight and i remembered the scripture Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to you own understanding. in all your ways acknoweledge Him and He shall direct your paths.” I’ve read this scripture before, and even have it committed to memory, but something stuck out to me tonight that i haven’t thought about before…it says to trust in the lord with all of your heart, and well we say we do that, but as i was thinking about it and thinking of what’s going on in my own heart, we really, or at least me, mostly trust Him when things are going good. We can say in the good times that we trust Him with everything but in the bad we question…why is that? Or when we’re scared to voice to God our emotions or feelings because we don’t know if they’re His will…you know what..God already knows what we’re thinking, feeling, and everything! its no secret to Him! It all goes back to trust; when we don’t intentionally tell God our thoughts and stuff in essence we’re saying we don’t trust You God, you couldn’t possibly understand…and like i said this is a completley knew thought to me also, so i’m going through it too…

But like i said I had a great quiet time and God is teaching me to simply wait on Him..not get caught up in my own little world of questions and insecurities, but to trust Him alone and to know that he has my best in mind…

With all that’s been going on in my head, God has made me very aware of how thankfull i am for my parents and other Godly mentors and friends that help me through these times…thank you God for everything…You are so awesome…!!!! and thanks again friends…  yeah i know it was kinda corny, but oh well i really am thankfull for ya’ll…you all challenge me in more ways than you know….

and that’s about it…i’m going to bed now, and i can’t wait for tommorrow…yay it’s refuge…oh an dthursdday we have our jamborree, or hwoever you spell it…we’re playig Holden…our rivals…so yeah it’ll be a pretty intense game…but we’re ready…so yeah… 

later
in christ
jordan

Isn’t God awesome.  I love how He can speak to you in so many ways.  Well I just thought that was cool.

Caleb Brown is moving to El Paso

 

Stash Attack

 

 

 

 

 

   

My boy Caleb

The First Thanksgiving

Stash Attack

Stash Attack

The First Thanksgiving

My boy Caleb

So one of my good friends Caleb Brown is leaving tommorrow morning to go to El Paso Texas to help start HPC El Paso.  He’s going to be leading worship and doing a ton of other things.  He’s going to do great.  Gonna miss ya!  Have fun!

Boot Gretna!!!

So as i said I’m the tc for VBS.  Well Ida decided to give the “computer” a name.  She would always say “Boot Gretna” when she wanted something on the screen.  Well at the end of the day when they were supposed to do random give-aways, I messed up on something and couldn’t get it to work.  Ida got everyone chanting “boot gretna” a ton of times.  so yeah I disappointed those poor little kids.

Well the next day, I messed up on something different but still something visible on the screen.  This time no one had to tell the kids what to do.  They all started yelling, “boot Gretna” at the top of their lungs.  i was mad at that time, but it was hysterical later.