Ok so I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately and whether or not to post it, but I decided why not. So I’ve come to the realization that I take life too seriously. I analize everything, and have found it hard to sleep if there is some percieved big decision or something big happens throughout the course of the day. Before I thought it was just the way I am, and too an extent that is true, but I don’t really like it.
The other day me and mom were talking about something and she told me, “You only see black and white, most stuff happens in the grey.” So i’ve taken this thought on, “life is lived in the grey”. God is teaching me how to enjoy life for what it is. How to enjoy people for who they are, and not be so dang serious. In everything. Life is way too short. Not only that, I think it bothers other people, it bothers me.
I think i’m just rambling now, but the jist of it is this: I have made the decision that I am not going to be so serious. I’ve made the decision that I’m going to enjoy the little things in life. I’ve made the decision to try not to be so analytical.
Through this process, I’ve seen that some of my thoughts on some issues were way to strict, way to harsh. so yeah, I guess some of those will have to change too.
Today is a new day! Be joyful always!
peace
jordan
So having a great time at the house just hanging with my mom. Just listening to some music, talking about life, sharing scripture and really just enjoying each other’s company. You know I don’t think I’d have been doing this three months ago on a friday night. I guess you just realize what’s important. I am extremley blessed to have an incredibly awesome family. To have four parents that love me and want the best for me. that are willing to listen to me, put up with me, and love me. To think that I took them for granted for so long. wow! So yeah, God is good!
So I’ve been listening to this song lately called “How He loves us”. The origional version is by a guy by the name of John McMillan or something. Kim Walker does a remake that is equally as powerful. Anyway it basically talks about, yep you got it you smart cookie, His love for us. The lyrics to this song are so powerful, aside from the depth of His love for us, there is a line that says, “and suddenly I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by Glory” Man that is a powerful thought, that when we enter into His presence, into His glory all of the things of life that have been afflicting us suddednly disappear behind who He is. Strong. It’s really quite humbling to think of the depth of love that He has for me, and how undeserving I am of it. Makes me want to love others with a reckless abandon and to really appreciate those I already love.
I love you Lord. You are worthy. You are sovereign. You are majestic. You are caring. You are in control. You know the plan. You want my best. You are my Lord and Saviour. You are my King. You are my portion. You are my shield. You are my rock. You are my deliverer. You are my substance. You are my healer. You are my provider, my strongtower, my hope, my future, my glory, my all in all, my everything. Have Your way. Teach me to die. Lord crucify me. Crucify my hopes, and dreams, crucify everything that is of me. Life through death. Thank you for allowing me to partake in the fellowship of your suffering.
So last night we had an amazing Old Testament Survey class. We went through Genesis and talked alot about Abraham and Joseph. Dr. Ferris taught us about the sacrifice that God required of both of these men of God and how God requires things of us too. And what God requires isn’t some trivial thing as what shirt to wear. No, God wants your very life, your very will. He requires what you love the most.
But what we learned was that after this, God begins to work in your life. Looking into the life of Joseph, we see tha God had promised him massive stuff, and then it looked like nothing was going right. God was developing the character Joseph needed to lead a nation.
Yesterday was really one huge lesson on the sovereignty of God.
Awesome!
10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at last you have revived your concern for me; indeed, you were concerned before, but you lacked opportunity. 11 Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. 12 I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. 13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:10-13
Oh the joy of being ok where God has you… Peace at knowing God is in control. I love you lord. let your will be done
So for the longest, i have wanted to watcht the move Once. I ended up getting it for my birthday and had been holding out so that I could watch it with some others that wanted to see it again. I decided there was no point in waiting any longer, so I just finished watching it. Amazing! I loved the way they weaved each character’s backstory into the main plot. Superb! So yeah Once was worth the wait even if I watched it by mysef.
So it would appear that I am finally at a resting time. We have just finished, i would have to guess, a good week and a half of hurricane relief. I’ve been at dad’s, mom’s, winbourn, Dville, and the HPSM apartments. I’ve done security at winbourn, food distrubution at Highland, water and ice giveaway in Dville, and a ton of cleaning. It’s been long nights and even longer days, and yet it was one of the best times of ministry that i can remember. I loved being able to help all of those in need. I feel honored to be able to serve them. I’ve also learned what it truly means to be “on call”. IDK it was a great few weeks of ministry.
I also feel that as a team, the full time HPSM full time interns really grew closer together. IDK just felt like i needed to blog since I haven’t in so long.
So yeah, it’s about seven and i think i’m going to bed. not setting an alarm and i hope i don’t wake up till at least 10. peace out tommorrow!
So I just realized I got internet back and I’m so excited. I finally get to check up on all the things i’ve been following. Yes! so I’m going to post more updates about Gustav a little later as there’s so much to say. I thought it’d be sufficient to express my delight at having internet service.
